Just a quick prayer

Hey all,

Just need a quick prayer. I feel like there's so much "busy" work I need to do tomorrow and I wander if some of it is just a distraction from what God wants from me tomorrow.  I literally have my whole day planned out from 8:30 all the way to bed.  I look at the schedule, knowing I need to cut some stuff out so I can have some down time, and I can actually have time with God, but it all seems so important. So how about I tell you what I have written down, and you tell me what can wait until tomorrow (or the next day), or maybe as I am typing them out I will see how ridiculous the task really is:

drop Ethan off at Mothers Morning Out, on my way home, stop at storage and pay storage rent, go into our storage unit and get out stickers for tomorrow, stop by front office of apartments and pay rent, inquire about any rent increases I should be expecting come June 1st (for those who don't know this, your landlord is required to give you written notice of any price increases (according to state of Texas I should probably clarify) as many days as you are required to give a written notice to vacate, so if you have to give a 30 day notice to vacate (move out), then they have to give you at least 30 day notice of your rates increasing after your lease end date), dishes, call vet about booboo (another story entirely), shower (yes, I won't have showered right away, maybe I will move this up to 7am soon as Kris leaves, that's kind of up in the air), hair cut, go to the church to help with quicken reports, to the library to print of Mommy & Me study stuff, home for lunch, balance check book, menu planning, grocery list based off that, return clothing to Steeles, pick up mail, pick up my precious cargo (aka Ethan), go the the park if he seems to need to burn more energy, home to prepare dinner, dinner, small group, skip Ethan bath time and story time due to coming home about 1.5 hrs after his bed time, mommy crashes out from day burn out.

And to top it off, I already have a list of three things I would like to do come Thursday during Ethan's other mother morning out, including going to a moms group without Ethan, but because a midwife is going to be coming to speak and I am interested in what she has to say, laundry, update my May calendar on my dry erase board and my bill paying calendar, and anything else that didn't get accomplished Tuesday or Wednesday. Ugh.  Now it is 11 pm, and I really need to lay down to get some sleep, but I know I need to hand over my busy schedule to God, because I know he can handle everything for me, otherwise I won't be able to sleep tonight and it will take all my energy to do anything tomorrow.  I also want to get up a little earlier than Kris and Ethan so I can have some one on one time with God and prepare my heart for the day. How much time do I start off with though?  I don't want to short change God, but I am already doing that by barely waking up in time to throw together a not so great lunch and breakfast for Kris and Ethan waking up 10 minutes after I wake up and I just don't do well with demands the first 1/2 hr I am awake.  So maybe I need about 45 minutes.  1/2 an hour with God, and 15 minutes to start preparing for the day for Kris and Ethan.  Maybe than I will great them with a cheery face, smiling, wishing them good morning in a sing song voice, hugging and kissing them, wishing Kris off to a good day like I mean it, not like, bye, see ya later, hope today is fruitful for you because it already sucks for me, sort of attitude.  How many times do I have to pray this same exact prayer to love my husband so completely that he has no choice but to love me back?  How many times until it actually happens?  Honestly, it has been drilled more and more into my head that it starts with loving and spending time alone with God.  Where else am I to get the strength to make it through my day if he doesn't provide it for me first?  Because I am human, and I am a failure at being human honestly, and I will continue to disappoint, but my God won't.  So yea, enough babbling.  time to get my behind to bed so 5:45 doesn't come so early.  Goodnight ya'll.  And extra prayers would def be appreciated!!